yeh im atm seriously depressed so thats what i wanna do..

like..
click
i take a sip
click
i take a sip
bang
i die

so yeh i suppose i made up another drinking game involving a pistol and a shot glass... if you're not dead or gotten over your depression you've lost the game

the main reason why im depressed is cuz the girl i like said that it would be better if we would stay as really really good friends... to be honest im not completely suicidal tho because i suppose i still have a chance.... if she and her new bf should ever break up (i dont know if i want that they stay together so shes happy or if i want that they break up and give me another chance so we could be happy together..) im actually quite sure i would have gotten her if she wouldnt have called to her other guy friend instead of me when she had been drinking this weekend..

oh well atleast shes happy... and im miserable again
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actually its not the fact that she only wants to be friends with me or that she has a bf thats making me feel miserable... its the fact that shes flirting with my friends especially when im around... i dunno if she does it on purpose... i hope not because this hurts quite bad

and my dad said that he thinks im a failure personally

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theres 24 scars on my arm tonight
24 scars on my arm
i cut one more time
and while im barely alive
theres 25 scars on my arm tonight
25 scars on my arm
...

no i didnt cut myself this time but i do have 24 scars on my wrist.. and lol @ making it sound like a drinking song xD

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but ye so since i promised to keep the winners of glarionac's contest in my journal for a month here they are again

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